Today Was Okay Rather Sad inside I Really Dont Know How to Fill This Empty place...
My heart is broken I so Which I had A Family That cared I mean I Do get upset I try so hard to get along but people walk over me and steal from me and I m suppose to sit here and bear it..
Thats All I have done My whole Life My childhood Sucked I mean the stuff wrong which was everthing that happen to me doing my 43+ foster homes I thought Foster Care was suppose to bring me away from tghe bad world but it only brought me into a dirtyier world Being beat Abused Neglect and Sexual Assaulted which noone knows till this day its made me a soft hearted person and now I m a nice person from being so quite so long holding stuff in I just dont know what to do not a day goes by when i think about my past or fell the pain that aches inside of me sometimes I just wish I could die because the pain gets so unbearable but I dont give up for some reason... I guess its God and its bad I m close to Him and always let the worldy things distract me I mean God Shows an Unconditional Love for All of us no matter what no matter how we choose to ignore him daily or choose the devil over him or sin against him..
God Loves Me and you so much its killing me that I m failing him Hes the loving father I ve always missed out on and wanted but I let people or sin and stuff of this world get infront of me..
God Please Forgive me and Help me to Surrender my self more to you I want what you have to offer so bad But I seem to be fixed on worring About What Others think of me instead of you Please Help me..
I love you lord And I know That Jesus Said If You Love me or my Father you will follow My commandments so far I guilty Of not following hardly any of them lord what ever it may take let thy will be done you are the love I seek.
All I have wanted out of life is Love, Acceptance and A Family And The lord Offers that..
I dunno But I hope and PRay for the lords will to be done..
Anyways I g2g,
<3 Dustin | 
